Thoughts of a Sprite

Tuesday, August 31, 2004

Time crunch!

Time is a commodity that I just don't have right now! I started school last week, right after we got back from New York, and I also started my part time job. It is going extremely well, and I am averaging over ten dollars an hour not including my minimum wage. I am kind of excited, as they hired me on as a server, with all intentions of getting me behind the bar. My first bar shift will be saturday, I will work five to close.... I am a little nervous, I have a cheat sheet with a lot of the drinks on it, and I remember alot of them, but there are some that I just don't know! I guess I could just ask them if they know whats in it... hehe

I did half of my last saturday shift behind the bar, but that was during the day, so it wasn't too busy... I made killer cash though so I am sure what ever humilation I may incur (for not knowing what is in a drink) will be entirely worth it! The cool thing about bar tending, is even though you are on your feet the entire shift, you are not running the length of a foot ball field to get to the snack bar, or bar as would you do on a server shift.

School, on the other hand, is not going so well. Trigonometry is really hard... not only is there x's and y's now we are using the Greek alphabet, and the tigonometric functions like sin, cos, tan, csc, sec, and cot... yeah like I know what that means. My teacher is pretty cool, I had him for Pre-Calc. and did well, but he assigns a shitload of home work... so guess what I do in my free time... yep Trig home work, and it is not one of those classes that you can skip the homework and still do good!

On top of all this there is this guy now... yeah a guy has apparently taken an interst in me, even with my cold hearted bitch attitude. I have been told I give off an aura that I don't want to be flirted with, possibly because it is partly true. I mean there is that part of me that wants to be in a loving realtionship, and part of me that just doesn't want to deal with all the drama that comes with it. My cousin had a good point though, that if I never let anyone in, it is going to be kindof hard to have a family one day. He says I should give the guy a chance. He does seem to be a nice guy! But if I let this go too much further he is going to want to monopolize what little free time I have... (emphasis on little please) I guess I will just see where it goes. I just don't want him to feel like he has some sort of sexual right to me just because I grant him a date or two... (theme song playing in back ground: "Hey ja - ja - jaded, you got your momma's smile but your yesterday's child to me. So jaded...") I will only proceed with this if he takes it super super slow! The slighest inclination that he is headed down the serious lane and I am out.... the slighest question that he is a lying sack of shit like 99.99999% of all other men and I am out... Now I can deal with Boys night out, and foot ball games and other male shit, but I have no tolerance for deciet, and I am already teetering on the edge of fleeing so seriousness would not be a good thing... "hey ja ja jaded" Yeah I have serious issues. I know I need to work on them, and I will sort through it in my own time. (wow maybe if he knew how serious my issues were he would go running screaming for the hills) hmmmmm.... that just might be a painless way out of it... j/k!

shes_a_sprite @ 8:23 AM.

1 comments

Larry said...

I agree with Bonnie no matter how much flack I give you at times. You do need to really consider if you are just looking for reasons to end it now as to “protect” yourself. If you do seriously want to consider him in a relationship then be honest with him. Tell him that you have very little time and what you do have you won’t be able to spend every minute with him. If he cannot respect that and then tries to absorb all of your time then you have justification to ax him. But, if you don’t tell him that you can’t spend all your time with him then he is going to try and monopolize your time. I mean isn’t that what we guys are taught, that your women wants you to focus on her as much as possible (walking the thin line between stalker and good boyfriend). Just think about it, and if you decide to keep him around for a little while longer then talk to him. There will be time for making families later.

4:40 PM